well it has been a VERY long time since I have written in here. I still have no computer so it has been a bit more challenging to keep up but I plan to get back at it. Life has been crazy weird, so lets update whats been happening and where i am at.
Well I am still at Tim Hortons every tuesday and friday. Its always an adventure and its always a surprise who may walk through that door. ( more may come on those stories) but I am there and at the moment I plan to be there for sure until June and if I get to switch to day shifts for three day sa week I will work there over the summer but if I dont get those shifts I may just say goodbye.
In the fall it has been confirmed I will no longer have my Pre-school program as it is being shut down for next year. This brings a bit of sadness but it also brings joy in new adventure. Next year iwill be full time for the first time in almost 8 years so it will be great and maybe great enough that there will be no more tim hortons. (what i will be teaching I will not annouce online as I am not sure how public it is and woudl hate to get it out into the wrong person.
there is so much goign on with teachers right now that I will just stick with tim hortons to insure a little income. And never know the surprises that may come outof that.
I did go to vancouver and it was a greta time. I love (almost lol) every mintue of being there. It was pretty crazy all the things I saw and did was so great. I learnt a lot about my self and it was a much much much needed break from being aroudn here.
I recently have joined a learn to run group. I so badly want to be an athlete but to be honest I have no ambition. I am trying and I am getting better but i have a lot of habits I need to break right now and I find every few weeks it is gettign better and better so i am looking forward to fullfilling my goals. July 30th here we come :)
well i am sure lots has happened since then like I am now an autie of three fantastic nephews and one great niece. They are even all learning to love the camera when I bring it around.
speaking of cameras I did my first family photo shoot and it went pretty good. There are a few things I need to learn from it but it was fun. If anyone else wants to be my geiny pigs I am willing to take photos of your family for free just let me know.
I am also looking forward to getting back into my crafts again as it has been awhile.
today though has been a weird day. Mothers day and I iwll say Happy mothers day. She is a great mother and tries hard to be the best she can be everyday. I think at times we clash becasue more and more I am realising I am becoming more and more like her.
But today I feel weird inside. I feel like something has just gone terriblly wrong and I have no idea what it is. I know sometimes I ruin things for myslef and today though I just tried to be helpful and a friend I feel like I ruined everything. Sometimes I smother and I am not meaning to but I do and I am working on it and I hope those that feel that way dont ignore me or stop being friends please just let me know and tell me thats how you are feeling becasue thats not what I mean to to . I just like to help.
Today also was a day I think I felt awful at friendships I had that really are no longer are not near as strong as they use to be and that was a hard thing to see today. It hurts and how does one mend those things. I am not sure you can and if you can it is only by Gods grace and today I am praying for restored relationships and friends.
There have been many times in the last few months that I just relaly want to have friends. I feel I have baout one closer friend that I can call anytime and is paitent with me but then I have aquatinces but that is about it. My phone is not one that rings off the hook all the time and thats also why I dont feel the need for a cell phone I really dont get calls enough to pay a big bill every month and never have anyone try and get a hold of . This may sound like a pitty party but its not. Its the age I am not and at moments it hurts and I wish that I coudl somehow make or find the courage to have CLOSER friends not just aquatnces that I sometimes see. I want others to call me and want to hang out with me etc but for now I need to trust God and be the best friend I can be to those around me and Try hard to learn how to be a good friend without the smouther part.
my house is falling apart I have felt super busy or just tired the last litle while that nothing aroudn here is getting done. SO today was the day to get it done. Its only a little after 5 and I coudl get it done but I am lazy, I kinda want to go biking or walking, and part of me wants to sit down and just have a good long chat with someone aboout life just life deep life. Hmmmm
well I guess thats a quick long update where I have been but I will do my best to be back here everyday to update how the day has gone. I hope tomorrow I feel a whole lot better about everything and that people will forgive me and jsut move on and accept me. There is me hoping and praying. And praying still for those around me who are hurting today.
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