Tonight has been an interesting night. I have been really tired tonight it has been a long couple of weeks for me. I stayed home to try and get some work done. I had this one girl in my grade four class who has been struggling. She hasnt been studying as hard as I know she can but for some reason this last test she studied so hard, tried her best and everyday in the hall she asks how she has done. Today I told her she would have them for the next class for sure so tonight I sat down marked the test and she got close to a 90% I was so proud of her. Friends cared and they all supported eachother.
While marking I sat down and watched a watched a few family movies. one about a judge who takes in a hurting foster child instead of sending her to prison becasue their were no foster homes left. And though she didnt really want to do it she looked into the girls life and REALLY got to know her and her story. The other movie was of an uncle whose siter dropped off the nephew who is autistic for the weekend. While she is away she gets in a car accident and dies.Now this uncle has to try and understand and explain and care for this boy when he has no idea how.
Now if you know me tears soon hit me as I watched people hurting, struggling through life but when someone stops to make a difference to know that they truly care for the hurting person even though they have no idea how to help it was amazing how those hurting grew and healed though the hurt never left..and those that were trying to help and had no idea how were touch by the people they were trying to reach.
Sometimes in life i see people hurting. I have always had a soft place in my heart for people. People who hurt, have nothing just need a friend, need a hug, need someone to talk to. Sometimes I know too I am the person who needs someone to hug me to listen to call me up and be there for me to but tonight my heart ached for friends and the family that is hurting. Like in the movies life continues on but how to cope carring on with everyday life and still having the hurt doesnt disappear. For me I just want to help them, I want to take the pain away I want to put everything back the way it shoudl be but thats not How God planned it, so how do I help. I feel like I shoudl call and make sure they are okay, that they know someone cares deeply, but what if they roll there eyes not wanting it, what if its a bother. I want to call and make sure that they have a friend by them each day to make sure they are ok. I want to make sure they have someone to laugh with and cry with when needed, I want them to make sure they can open up and talk without feeling weird or crazy, or weak. I have in my time seen so many people hurting and they want to look strong so they get all tough and build up walls. I hope and pray for these people that they will allow people to reach into their lives and help them. Not to be afraid just to pick up the phone and say nothing but know someone is there, or to call and talk about everything to nothing.
But how does one approach one how does one help when they dont know if the person wants help. How do you be there for them when they dont seem to want you there. Do you keep bothering them to be in their life or do you step back and say nothing hoping they dont feel like you are leaving them behind becasue youre not you just dont want to be a bother, but you want to be a great friend and to help. I pray daily for guidance and direction but sometimes I still dont know. I dont know what step to take next or how to help.
I know I am rambling here tonight but my heart really longs tonight for those out there who are hurting tonight, for those who are responsible to care for the now hurting when they dont know how to help but God has placed them in their lives for a reason so he has a plan for each and every situation but where do I fit in. Do I run and leave them behind? DO I sit on a bench waiting for them to come to me and sit beside me and wait for them to talk and just sit and be there? DO I continue to reach out, visit, write, try and hang out with them? When a person doesnt know how to help the hurting but the heart hurts with them its a tough spot to be in and I wish I had an answer on what to do and how to help. They mean a lot to me but I hate to lose any of them by being there to much or to little for them. So tonight as I pray and think of those hurting tonight. May God bless you and keep you safe tonight. May you feel his presence and peace and strength for each new day. May you help those around you to know when, how, to be near or far, often or none, as you journey through everyday hurts and pains. You are never alone even though I am sure there are moments when you cant imagine how you will take the next step or make it though another day.
My dream today is to make sure person in this world knows they are loved, they are special and they are cared for. Never give up there is someone who cares.
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