Well it has been a while since I have been on here so I thought I better sit down and up date what i can while I have this tiny computer being lent to me.
To be honest there has been so much happening in my life and yet there feels like nothinghas been happening. School has been goign alright. I have finished my report card marks and everything has been sent in so that s a relief. Except now i have to figure how \i can get the remander of the inforation across to these grade 4 students to help them all pass before the year is done. As well I cant remember if i emnetioned or not but I will no longer be teaching my preschool class next year as they have taken that position away so i sit wondering where and what i will be teaching next year. \\\\hope to find out in the next 3 weeks or so.
Besides teaching I have also been continuing to work at \tim hortons and it has been frusterating. I just find that there is a ton of expectations and yet there are no guidlines to get things done and that is really frusterating. I know I coudl take soem of this into my own hands but at the same time is it my job to be making charts and lists and oragaize a store thats not mine. But to be honest I think I woudl have a few more expectations around the store on EVERYONE that works there. SO every shift i woudl love to quit but every shift I also know that I need this job if i want food on my table everyday. SO how to do a job with a cheerful heart when it drives you crazy?
The camera well I love it and yet I have no idea really how to use it. I think I know what I am doing and think i have it all figured out and then i take a picture and it all falls apart errr. what a disaster. I will still plug away with it and I am looking forward to my trip to vancouver to try and take all sorts of cool pictures with it. I just wish I was wondeirng aorund taking pictures with someone who knows abou tthe cameras so i coudl ask a lot fo questions while I am tryign to figure it out but I am beyound excited to go on this journey. I really beleive that I am goign to learn a lot on this journey and that my eyes are going to be opened and refreshed in what lies ahead.
Me and my natural path were on the same page for a while until I get so busy or run out of prepared food at home. |This weekend hasnt been goign so well and I am feelign it. It really is strange when I eat the wrong foods that I may realise I just ate i have to be so careful. I get so light headed and dizzy my ears get itchy and drive me crazy and I get really really tired. I have been having more energy in the past two weeks then I had in a long time and reently I have cheated a few times when I go to a resturant with friends (not always a great idea for me I am seeing) and then I have been dreaming again which makes me not so rested. i am not sure what it is that makes me dream so much but I ready tto try adn get to the bottom of it I know that for sure.TOmorrow is monday a new day and a day to do my best to get back on track so I can feel better again. Right now its not about losing its just abo9ut gaining my energy back after having lost it for 3 years. i am ready to have me back.
In saying that I have felt i have a bit more engery has sure been helping to keep my house cleaner. I have been not napping so much so the dishes get doen I get laundry done quicker (along with the new laundry hamper sure helps to organize) and my bed gets made. I love a clean house I am so happy and peaceful when its liek that but then there is my next issure which I am sure many people woudl like and that is now i often have nothign to do at home so I get bored. See I have a 10inch tv i use for movies I dont even have farmer vision on it. I live by myslef so I tend to wonder what to do. I love doing crafts and sewing and quilting and have lots of resources in my place to do that but the problem is my place isnt really big. So when I get out a project to start doing it makes a mess in my now clean house that I have to try adn get cleaned up> I often wish for a two bedroom place where I can make one into a craft room. If anyone knows where I can rent a two bedroom for $700 all ulitities included please let me know as this woudl allow me to have more room to craft. Or if someone has a house and wants to marry me and I can turn the basement into my craft space even better lol j/k. I am kinda content to see where my life leads.
As for relationship for all thos eout there. I am still on this single life journey. It is a great time to get closer with God but at times is so lonely. I often wish someone woudl call me just to chat about postive up liftling things talk about adventure and life. Cause like I said livign a lone can get boring without people to chat with. I do trust that God has a great plan for me and right now he is teaching me many things tha tone day will help to make me a better friend, mother, wife, teacher, and person.
As for me and God. He is amazing. He amazes me more and more everyday. God has taught me that he is so much bigger then i coudl ever imagaine. THis God has taught me to quit trying to statify myself and rely on Him. THe tough part is I tend to make promises to God that if he helps me here I promsie I will be so much more for him and yet I do well for a whiel and then brake that promise falling back into the same pattern. SOmetimes I get so mad at myself and pray that HE will once again shine His Grace upon my life and get back up try again. I know that God cares and will always be there to hold me up when I fall and I love Him for that. There are times though where I wonder How I will have to pay for what I do. What then I just have to trust in the God who loves me that His grace will shine through me and I will have His strengeth as I continue to journey through life.\\
In church the pastors often have been praying a blessing over us before we leave and I have relaized that maybe I need to pray myself what God has in store for me through his word. I have been praying through Ephesians. like 3:14-19 just asking God to trust Him in his plans and thanking him that he has a plan for me. That I woudl understand His love so much that I coudl shine it out to others when its tough. And I have been looking at other verses that really shine out what I beleive God wants for me and for others.
Today I know that God is amazing and will continue to amaze me. There is so much I am learning and I feel like I am falling all the time but I am thankful that God picks me up helps to dust me off and carries me through the journey I am on. I thankful that those who have crossed my path you are amaizing. I have people out there that are prayign for me and I thank you for that. I know that there have been many steps along this journey that I would never have made it through without the encouragment and prays of others believers thanks.
Thanks to my family who keeps allowing me to be apart of there family time so I can enjoy my neiece and nephew grow up. I appreciate it.
Well this was a long update but it has been a while. Let the journey continue as I enter into another full week!!!
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