Exercise

Headache and new goals dont mix. I promised myself that I woudl get back on eatting what my natural path said I was a loowed to eat and I need to get to the gym. One to get in shape and one so I can at least do my mini triathlons this summer. The problem today is I have a huge headache. It came on last night and I cant seem to shake it. Since I promised i woudl go tot eh gym I will but we will see how I do.

PS since I am back at work again I can update my blog each morning or afternoon. Stay posted and I will try and have an interesting blog post soon as for now you get my boring life :)

A day to get ready

I decided that I am a list person. In order for me to get things doen I really do need a list. It seems when I have a list I know exactly what to get done in a day and i tend to get thigns done very quickly so that is my new plan to make lists almost everyday it just makes sense to me. DO you need a list? DO you use a listfor anything?

As well I am almost done my week off (if you call it that since i have been working everyday this week) and I need to get some food in my fridge so I can get organized again. I bought tons of stuff to make food and now its time to get to work and make some food. Its only 4pm lots of time..NOT.

Well I better run and looks like someone may borrow me a computer for a bit. Now how nice woudl that be. I am truely blessed in this life time.

I am a Nikon Girl Now!

The decision was made and I bought a Nikon. THe girl at Dons Photo helped me out with all sorts of things and for now as I begin to learn I am excited to start it on my first ever BIG camera. Ya it should be good. I iwll post a picture when I can.

My computer is broken at the moment so I may be missing a few updates on my blog :( but I will do my best to keep this updated as much as possible.

Have a great day and we will write here again soon.

Short post as I am not on my computer.

Oh Camera Oh Camera

Debating on a camera. Should I go with the kijiji Nikon D80 with tons of stuff two lens for $750 or do I go lower end canon rebel xs two two lens which I woudl have to switch back and forth for approx. $750. I know a lot of people use Canon but maybe I shoudl be different lol. I just odnt know and I want someone to just get me one and say use this lol.

Ps I came hoem from work tonight and my house smells really really bad....I think somehting died haha but now I have to try adn find it somewhere in here. HELP.

If I had a camera i could take a picture of the smell haha. oh right wrong usage.

Well I guess the update tomorrow just may be my new camera or new to me :)

Blah

Today is just one of those blah days. I have had a lot on my mind today, lots of wonderings. Had a crapy sleep the might before. I havent napped in three days, but i am off school for the week so that may say something. Its jsut blah. i dont really want to be around peole or a lot of people. I just need a long long break alone with no unfinshed things to think about just need a break. But yet today is a blah day with lots of things on my mind..yet not a lot I am wanting to tell the world today. As for now its just the blad tuesday. No idea what tomorrow will bring. Answers I can hope!

Family Day

On Sunday during our 5 hour lunch. Thats right four of us went out for lunch went to the resturant at 2pm and left at 7pm and we all ate a sandwhich and a bowl of soup in that time (well some of us ate the whole sandwhich lol). Anyways in those 5 hours we talked about family and what makes a family. Can you be a family with only one person? What about a husband wife and one or more kids..is that what makes a fmaily? Are you a family if you are married and have a dog? What if you are single and have a pet? Does that make you a family? Do you have to be in relationship with someone else in order to be a family... or do you have to have several people in your home to make a family? How do you know when you are now your own family?

As a single person you wonder am I a family? If I never marry will I never be a family? Someone said you need a relationship? If I have a relationship with God, are we the two of us family? Well I dont know if I have a solid answer to this but I was first asked this question in my family class in Home Ec. in University. What is family? Hmmmm.

Well today was family day. A day off to enjoy time with your family. So where do I go? Join another family? Am I family? Really I dont know but to be loved is something that fills my heart with joy. God has really been showing me just how much he cares about me and loves me in the last few months it blows my mind. Like really blows my mind. There are days when being single isnt easy and today when I woke up was one of those days.

I woke up at 9am which is kinda early for me on a day off lol. I went on facebook. My brother had on his status that he was heading to the fun factory with his daughter and she would be playing with her cousin there. I thought for a minute as who her cousin was when I realised that woudl be my nephew. SO now on this family day my brother and sister and their kids were going off to have fun on fmaily day and becasue I am single no kids I woudl be home and not invited. It really stung me hard and I kinda got a little angry and frusterated inside...I did take a deep breath and said well God youre in control so Kim just go back to sleep for a bit wake up and clean and watch a movie and enjoy your day off. Which seemed like an ok idea though doing something with "family..or having a family seemed a whole lot better at the moment"

Well I continued to do a few things and the phone rang shortly after 930am, And you might have guessed it. It was my brother. He asked what I was doign today and said his wife had mentioned to him to call me becasue maybe I woud like to come and hang out with my niece and nephew and sister and brother for a while. She had no idea how I was feeling but God did. God knew and God totally cared about me. I was over joyed though my brother didnt know how over joyed I was  ( I did thank him lol) but I truely felt blessed.

I had so much fun with them climbing in and out of the ball pit. Going down slides, laughing and giggling and watching the expressions on the kids faces as they discovered new things. Wow God is so amazing. He can even do more amazing things in our lives when we take a minute to just pause and let Gods time to do what he wants to do in our lives.

I thank the Lord for putting on someone elses heart today to include me in this "family day" I was truely blessed to be a part of this day. God is so good. I am glad after 30 years I am finally learnign to stop be paitent and wait for Gods timing in what He has planned. I hope and pray I can keep trusting and waiting on His timing.

God is good. and thanks again to my sister-n-law for encouragaing my brother to call me and for my sister and brother for bringing the kids out and to my neice and nephew for allowing me to have fun with you. I am blessed to have you all in my life.

Sorry still havent figured how to make my pictures line up where I want them to go yet :

( Oh well the memory is still there either way!

Camera

I have been wanting to buy a camera for a while now but just never seem to have the money where I want to spend it or not sure which one to buy, etc. A lady asked me to take family pictures for them in March. Deep down I am really excitied for this opportunity but I am exteremly nervous as well. One rigth now I dont even own a camera lol. I have a freind who said I coudl borrow hers but I dont know much about it so I begain thinking. Maybe I need to buckle down and just buy a camera. Now I need to start pricing stuff out and make sure I iwll have enough money.

I was looking on line and found the camera I have been interested in for a while now on sale for the next 10 hours only. Serious....I cant make this big decision in 10 hours....so now I feel liek i missing out on the BIG sale...errrr. Anyways the big purchuse is about to happen and I kinda hope I can convince myself to make the big purchuse this week. Stay tuned I will post the picture of my new camera as soon as it arrives and paid for in my hands :)

I cant wait to learn about takign pictures !!!!!

You need family pictures down...or want to be my model to practice different poses on? I will be needing people soon :)

Ticked off

Today I realised I get ticked out about the littlest things. People at work just got me on edge and it was brutal. SO I realised I need to figure out how not to let peoples way of doign things not tick me off or make me so irritated. Realization in my life seen otday of my fault and its time to cahnge. More about my life change comng. I must be growing up lol. But now I am exhauseted.

miracles!

Have you ever prayed and prayed for a mircle to happen and then one day the mircle comes true. Or you think the mircle came true but you just cant believe that it came true. Well I think this is happenign to me. I in no way doubt God can do mircles and in this case I knew he coudl but woudl it happen to me...today I found out that the mircle did happen, deep inside I am in shock in complete awe that God loves me so much that a mircle came true..but i will be honest I still am a little uncertain on how it happned but I dont want to unbelieve God becasue I beleive he is real and alive and I am just so excited what a testimony in life eye opener. I believe God did a mircle but I will be honest i am waiitng for more clarrifcation but really Our God is so loving and amazing it makes me want to ge closer and closer to Him and serve and trust Him in every aspect of my life. so dont be afriad to go to God He loves you in evry place your in. I look forward to growing deeper with him. I am keeping faith that this is a true mircle...and even if it isnt what I think God is still one amaizing amazing God!!!! Are you trusting Hm in every way today?

Passion

Have you ever had a passion for something? The past years, months, weeks, days I have really been wondering what woudl I really love to do everyday, what would inspire me to want to do something everyday.

I have always had a passion to take pictures. Since I was a little girl I have loved to take pictures. I remember taking two strayform pieces kinda taping them together. Then I woudl go around outside and pretend to take pictures of stuff. After I took the picture I woudl draw it on cardboard place it in the camera and then pull it out as if I just took it. I just loved this.

I remember I got my first camera when I was in grade 6 which broke in 05 and my parents said when I coudl afford to pay for the developing then I coudl have a camera. I started babysitting and was able to start affordign it and ended up getting a camera. I loved it I have albums full of pictures. I did get a digital camera a few years back which I put through the rough test as it has been everywhere. But broke when I rolled my quad but I am saving for a heavey duty pocket camera. I just love takign pictures the problem is I feel likeI have never had tiem to sit and really study a camera so I dont know much about cameras. But i reallize I have a passion to take pictures so I am also saving for a T2i and have my first family photo session in March. Scared to death and still dont own a camera but trusting God can do a miricale her on how I iwll get what I need.

I also have a passion for decorating and design. For baking and creating. I have the gift within me but I have never really sat and focused on anything. I always feel so rushed and pulled every direction. Some due to workign a lot so I dont have a lot of down time. The lack of energy with my health but I know that God is goign to use me in the area of creativity.

I am praying that a job in the area of Home Ec. will open up for me to take in my teaching career path. I believe this is where i feel I need to go to next in my teaching. I beleive it will take my passion for creativity and allow me to take it in a whole new level and maybe bring life back within me.

Please pray for me as I begin to try and take time for these passions and begin to create. Pray I will find the money to get the camera I need and a new computer that will work to hold the graphics that I will need to design. I am excited to see where this step of my journey is about to take me. Thanks for praying and coming with me on this journey.

I would love ot hear about your passions and what you are doing with them.

Kimberly: Nap Appina

If you are following my blog an dif you are following my life at all you will know that I am a sleeper. The past few years I cant stay awake sometimes and I tend to nap 2-3 hours everyday. I have been seeing doctors to find out whats wrong with me and they can find nothing. Back in October I got to see a sleep doctor and he put a rush on me getting in for a sleep study. Well the "rush" day came yesterday. I went to the hosptial to check in for the night to see if they would find anything as they study my sleep.

I arrived at 8pm checked in to emergency and then headed up to the waiting room. I walked in and it was dead quiet I was thinking coem on peope lets talk, but no one did. Then I nurse came in and we all filed in to the next area. He started to call out a name and the room number. I kinda felt like I was in prison. As the name was called you took your stuff and went into your room. When I got to my room I walked in and put my stuff on the chair and wondered now what its 835pm. Well thankfully it wasnt to much after another nurse came in and talked me and said I coudl get ready for bed and then she would start hooking up the wires.

Me with the wires.

Well form the picture you can see the wires. Every wire you see on the blue pad there is a spot on my body with some wire as well. I didnt get the back of my head. But they monitored my blinking, breathing, sounds, leg movement, rib cage movenment, heart, oxygen, etc. THis is what I carried aroudn with me for a whole day. I dont have a picture of the night tubes in my nose and on my finger etc that I have to sleep with. Well I finally went to bed at 1030pm and if you look in the bed picture this is my home away from home lol. Next time I will bring my own blanket a sheet is not enough I was so cold. And notice the camera on the roof yep they watch me sleep all night.

So when I went in to bed the nurse told me if I have sleep appina she will coem in around 2pm and wake me and put on a breahting mask then I iwll have to get up at 6am. If I dont then i can sleep through the night and wake up and 8am. Pretty sweet deal. Well I was the only one out of the 5 there last night that got up at 8am :). yet this meant they didnt figure out what was wrong with me besides I dotn snore lol.. The nurse said I had to leave the wires on until I saw the doctor everyone else got theres off. And I had to give a urnie sample. I went and foudn out no one else had to so why me. They wanted to test for drugs me me lol. Ya thats why I slept so well. Anywyas I wont keep this long. Doctor sees me says I slept fine doesnt know whats wrong so they can keep me for the day sleeps. So this is around 9am now. SO the day sleeps mean you have to go back and have naps every 2 hours from 10am -6pm. they let you try and sleep for 20 min then they wake you up and you have free tiem until the next nap time. There were about 6 all together. I am pretty sure I fell asleep at least 4-6 times and was dreaming in at least 2. They know but wont tell you if you were actually asleep and dreaming...anywyas so i spent the day in this bed with these wires to basically find out when I fill out a form I can now say I dont snore (so if you ever thought it was me snoring think again lol j/k. TOmorrow the doctor reviews my day sleeps and calls me to let me know what they foudn and what they can do to help if I have nap appenia. Anyways there is the overveiw of my sleep study. No mask for me and no real answers still. I am trustign that God knows so I will keep moving in life living it how I can for Him.

Thanks for those that have been praying for me and my health! But God is good..so far nothing serious so that is a blessing

Sleep

Well 3 more hours and I will be checking into the hospital. I am a little nervous not sure why. Its not like anything bad will happen execpt that I get to sleep. For once I get to sleep. So a while back the doctor put in a request for me to get in for a sleep test and tonight is the night. Wires straped to my head, microphone to my nose and tubes in my nose, lol and I am to sleep RIGHT. Anyways I am hoping and praying that they will find something some leads as to why I am so tired. This is really my last resort right now. They say you shoudlnt nap today well I did everything I coudl to keep these eyes open but I couldnt keep them open any longer so I ended up having a 2 hour nap. I hope that they still allow me to do the test tonight. Serious though there was NO way to keep these eyes open and that happens right.

Well off I go to pack and I will let you know tomorrow what I find out.

Happy Sleeping.

Valentines Day

Today is one of those days most people love or hate. As for me its kinda just a day. I have never really celbrated the day in which I would one day love to celbrate it. I look forward to even once someone surprising me with a fantastic date on Valentines. I know its all commericalised and stuff but I really do think it would be fun.

Today I woke up and kinda forgot it was valentines day. My students at school didnt even get valentines day treatment from me becasue I forgot. I felt kinda bad not really but kinda so I switched my Gr. 4 lesson plan around and taught them all abou the heart. lol. Thats the closest I got to tha today.

I do love surprising friends a bit on valentines day and I think it is another fun day just to remind us to tell people and show them we care. Even if we can do it every other day it is still a great reminder.

Today I ended the day watching the Bachlor and man they get to do some really neat stuff on that show. Cliff jumping.....I woudl be so scared but I woudl be so pumped to do it....supper on a dock by the beach....an island to yourslef ... I love to do fun things and I think it woudl be great. So often I watch the show and think oh just to have a camera to take pictures why dont they have cameras...lol (this is if I was on the date I dont want pictures of them hahahha)

Hanging out with a great friend is always fun. Tonight we both just wanted to order out ro get food but we didnt so proud of us :0

Then when I was driving home tonight I was listening to the radio 100.3 and I kinda got excited to see God when I got home. I felt in my heart that God woudl be there He is my date waiting for me. I got excited and kinda nervous it was a weird feeling. I was so excited to just sit down and get to know him better. I kinda craved time with just him, but at the same time I was nervous because he isnt a phyiscal being like we are used to I didnt know exactly how to hear him and be with him. Yet something for one of the first times inside me got so excited to see Him and really tonight God was all I wanted. He was the true valentine I wanted tonight and I just wanted to see Him and know Him better. It was a neat feeling and what a great feeling on Valentines day!

Lord thank you fo rloving me the way you do. Thank you for your paitence and for understanding me. Thanks for miricles you do in my life and cherishing me. Please continue to show me how you cherish me and how you want me to love you deeper and show me how to have a deeper relationship with you where I get excited to see you everyday.

I love you.

My Home Sweet Home

Back in May something inside me one day said you need to find a place on your own and figure out how to make it work. Without a full time job right now and with rent being crazy I wasnt sure how it was going to work, but God gave me a great little basement suite which really has become my home.

My parents recently moved out of their home where we lived for abotu 14 years and I was there again tonight and it just made me think tha tliving on my own is where I need to be right now. I am learning a lot about myself and I am slowly growing closer with God. Learning to make better decisions and knowing one day I will even be able to buy a house and I look forward to that great day.

Today though I want to show you my house. I am so much more relaxed when its clean and everything is in its place I just love it. I thought I woudl share my Home Sweet Home with all of you.

welcome to my home. Small entrance. :) 

my kitchen. my whole place is tinyso i have to store my bike and

snowboard in the kitchen. 

 Livingroom. its kinda cozy when the lights are dim, and i cuddle up in my reading chair to a good book.

my hallways (if you call it that more of a square with my collection of jeackets :)

My room with my cozy bear rug!

my bathroom with my favourite shower curtain and wall talk i make.

So I am stil trying to figure out this photo thing. Its not really going where I want them to go so I hope you cna figure it out. But this is my home sweet home for now. Feel free to stop by for a visit any time. I love to have company!!!

Wings and Friends

Well its late. But what a blessing to be among friends and getting some great food. Even when everyone is married except two of you and all they try to do is make coments about getting two people together. LOL If only they woudl all figure it out already it isnt goign to work.

But you still gotta love your friends

Donuts

All I have to say is so good. My stomache hurts.

These are the key words of the night:
- special donut times 2
- 18 ouch...yummy
- white
- sprinkles
---yummmmmmmm

want to know the story ask me in person one day. wasnt sure if i should post full details :)

Doyou have a favourite donut? If you coudl make one of your own what would it be like?

Amazing to Look Out a Clear Wind Shield

Man I am a procrastinator. I will wait a lifetime if I dont have a deadline to achieve something..so it seems. A while ago like quite some time ago but within this winter season, my windshield wiper broke or the rubber split. Whenver I would wipe my windows it woudl leave a nice long streak right where I look out. Well I figure if I sloch down or sit up REALLY tall then I could see over or under it no big deal. I have gone a long tiem without this wiper working. Funny hows it always the drivers side lol. Sigh.

Wel today I decided I woudl head to an auto store look up my car and by new wiper blades and well I did. I put them on got in my car and Cleared my windshield..WOW does it ever make a difference. WHo knew. Maybe next time I shoudl do it a little sooner.

This weekend I will try and post pictures of the empty fish bowl, wipers, my gas light which always seems to be on (and is on again grrr), the staple from my tire, clean house, etc. I just havent gotten there yet.

For today I put on those wipers and lovin it. Its kinda like Christmas.

What is your joy about a car? I took out the garbage out of my car today. Thats my fav. feeling. I need to clena clean it now but what a joy to have a clean car.

Positive People

Today was another day lol. This blog really has made me just think and remember life. Well today I was a little early for my hair apoitment (my hair went a little blonder today. I dont do well with hair change so once again I wonder why did I do that to my hair lol. I know it is fine but its the new look that one has to get use to again hehehe) and since my parents moved I thought maybe I should send my mail to my own house. I stopped in to see if I could quickly change my address and everything. The girl at the desk was so friendly.

It was a kind of friendly that seemed so sencere. She asked how I was and how things were going in the new place etc. Everything she said was encouraging. She kept building me up the whole time making me feel like the most sucessful person in the world. I just cant get over how much she was positive. When I left there I was in such a more up lifted mood it was un real.

I left thinking that is exactly the type of person I want to be. Part of me thought I would maybe be annoyed by her since she is so posiitve but that is most likly becasue I am not. But being around her for those 10 min. made a world of a difference. I just figured if I could be that posiitve and happy life would be so much more fun and peaceful.

I want to try and be more like this. Just be happy. People may wonder why you so happy.. dont know just am right becasue we have so much to be thankful and happy for so why dont we show it. Take time to invest a little joy into someone elses life. This girl made a total difference in my life today. Have you made a difference in someones life I would love to hear about it?! Has someone made this difference for you?

Oh to just smile and know you are better off than someone else no matter how bad life seems so lets smile, be positive and make the most of this moment that God has given us to live. How are you going to live it?!

I Would Like to Plug In

Well it is pretty cold outside tonight. I would say it will get down to about -38ish so my car needs to plug in. Well the city decides to move all the snow to the sides of the road so no one can park. Tuesday nigths are my nights I work at Tim Hortons late so when I get hoem i just want to go to bed but tonight someone parked in the only spot in front of my house.errrr. i think there shoudl be a law that you cant park in front of someones else espeacialy on a cold day and when you arent plugging in. I need and want to and you are ain my spot. aso up on a snow bank in the middle of the road I parked my car tonight and dragged a cord accross the lane so ai can get up start my car and actually have my car start. Oh the joys of winter cold and snow packed up everywhere.

well its late for me so I hope I ge this in on tuesday night. But I ma exhausted and need to hit the sack as they say lol.

Do you think ther eshoudl be a law about no parking in front of your house?

A Day of Change

Today was a BIG day for the Mathies. After 14 years we left the longest house and town we have ever lived and moved to Saskatoon. OK so maybe I didnt really but my parents did but it was my roots that I finished High School in and lived for some time.

My parents have found a great house but man it was hard to see today. It was hard to see becasue it will never be the old house so you start to compare and it was tough on me. I know the house will be great and it is perfect for where they are in life. I look forward to seeing them set it up and make it there own home.


At the same time I went to visit my friend today who just bought their newer house and it starts to make me jealous. It is great to see such nice places and makes me want a place of my own but in time right. I figured man I want a house a husband family but its not time for that. There are other things I need to work on and through right now first and then I will have a great life ahead just one day at a time.

For now I am thnakful for my parents and it will be great to have them closer. I am excited for them and they get a new house on their 35th wedding aniversary. WOW.

Did you always grow up in the same house? Have you bought a new house yourself? I love to hear house stories what it looked like how you may have changed it etc. Feel free to share your stories.

LOKI Snow fun!

Sunday a very very very cold day but my LOKI jacket kept me warm as can be. I convinced Ranch boy to come out and join me. He wore his White camo and fit in just fine (don't ya think, lol). SO because I was wearing the cool jacket I got my name in a draw to win $1000 of LOKI products but I didnt win hahha. I also got a free burger but lost the ticket :(  But we had a great time taking pictures and we even tired the Human dog sledding but no Pictures because the lady taking it wasnt quick enough to keep up with Ranch dude. To be honest neither was I, he says dont step on the sled..so I have to try and keep up you should have watched it so funny casue I went flyign the girl went flying and he kept a running.

 

               The Mother bear of the Three bears.

                      Sitting on the Queens throne!

 I just had to try to go down the Ice

Slide. I even stood in line! It was awesome I would have gone down over and over again if others would have joined me.

It was great.

Me and the ranch guy at the castle entrance.

I tried snowshoeing but had to race myself. Can you guess who won??? Yep you got it ME! We also went on a nice horse carriage ride. And had some REAL Lemonaid it was sweet sour..cause it was real. It was fun to get out in the outdoors and enjoy a good time. Not as many pictures as I would have liked but when you only have a guy with you and its -30 outside its hard to convince them to keep taking pictures. I got a few I got to go and its great to have freinds that will eventure out with you.

Have you gotten off the couch or out of the house this week to enjoy the outdoors by yourself or with a friend? It may be cold but the great outdoors is always worth it. Remember your camera. Please feel free to leave your outdoor adventure story here for me to read.

Music Speaks

Before I get into my topic of the day I have a story. I woke up this morning kinda lazy to leave the house before at least mid afternoon but I was hungry. I dont have much food here as why I need to leave the house but I figured I could find SOMETHING. That I did, I found some old buns in the freeze I had made a while ago. They werent the best but they could do. I also had some frozen fruit so I thought...lets have a honey bun with a shake. So I started to thaw the bun and the fruit in the microwave I set it for 5 min. Thinking the bun would take like 45sec I checked it and it was still hard so I left it in for almost 3 1/2 min and then it was good enough to eat while the fruit thawed. While I was hungry and the bun with honey was really good...I am hungry everything is good. So I decided while I blended the fruit for my shake I would put another bun in and have another honey bun so I set the microwave for 3 min and just before it beeped there was smoke coming out everywhere. To be honest I opened the microwave to see the bun and there was so much smoke that I just closed it again before setting off the smoke detector. No idea if that bun is hard black rock or if I blew up my microwave but I tell you it was bad...so I kinda laughed, said figures and took my shake opened all the windows and walked away. I should check out the microwave sometime and see what really happned. :)

Now to the post part. I think this is one of the best posts becasue I just love getting into music. It totally makes my day when I hear a song. I have a great friend who shares music a lot with me and I just love it. I love when they send me a song and it just fits with whats happening. I love hearing a new song at church or an old song that just hits me and challenges me to be different, to keep going or to not give up.

I often cry when I listen to music becasue it just hits my soul and it makes me cry becasue I am happy, or reminds me how blessed I am.....or just how God loves me at my highs and my deepest lows.

I want to share with you 25 songs that I really like. There are so many songs I like and I will share more over the time to come but here is a list of songs. I would share the story behind each one but we will be here all day.. lol. But I hope you listen not to the singer but to the lyrics and the heart of a God who loves us, wants a deep relationship with us and wants to challenge us in a deeper relationship with Him.

Find a friend today that you can share music with, books with , or art, etc. Talk about How God is speaking to you through it all. In relationships with others we need to start getting deep. Not just surface fun stuff but lets get deep with friends, espeacially those close to you. Open up break down walls and lets reach out together to God, for God and help others find the freedom In Christ and Christ alone.

Christ is enough though its hard to believe. We are beauitful, handsome, and made perfect by God. God wants all of us the hurt the pain the good and the bad run to Him. God was and is and is to come. Make Him number one in all you say and do. Have you given up? A friend shared this quote with me today.
              "When you think you have surrendered everthing, what else haven't you surrendered"

Here is a list of my 25 songs. I would like to hear what you think of one or more of the songs, or what your favourite song is and why it has touched you. (I was hoping to play them on here but you will have to look them up sorry). These songs are in no real order.

1. Making melody – Matt Redmen

2. Befriended – Matt Redmen

3. Everything is different – Shane and Shane

4. Call Me Beautiful – Ginny Owens

5. It is well – Kuttless

6. What Faith Can Do – Kuttless

7. I Am Still Yours – Kuttless

8. Halluah To My King – Paul Baloche

9. I cling to the cross - Casting Crowns

10. All the broken pieces – Matthew West

11. Love Never Fails – Brandon Heath

12. No Not One – Brandon Heath

13. You Are Glory – Rush of Fools

14. Always – Building 429

15. Lifesong- Casting Crowns

16. Love Them Like Jesus – Casting Crowns

17. Light Up the Sky – The Afters

18. While I'm Waiting – John Waller

19. Start Over- The Afters

20. Behold The Lamb of God

21 Running After You - Ben Cantelon

22. Grace and Love - Kuttless

23. Walking on the Stars - Group1Crew

24. Today as for me and my house - Brain Doerksen

25. The River - Brain Doerksen.

I hope others continue to fall in Love with this amazing God. Dont keep your moments of how He speaks to you share with others that God is alive.

Hmmmmmm

Today for writing is a hmmmmm day. It was somewhat uneventful. There were a few moments today where i was confused but I think I can work with it. Blessing right...what blessings. The sky was amazing today. God is Great.

I am exhausted tonight as i finished teaching an Tims and am hoping this Blog records friday. Well blessing to have a job!

I am looking forward to my post tomorrow so stay tuned should be a gooder. For now I am off to sleep.
Did i sy I love sleep? how much sleep a night do you need? If i could my body functions best on 10 hours a night!

So get to bed :)

How Far Does God Have To Go?

The past while I have wondered how far does God have to go to get our true attention? I have always considered myself a christian. I truely do love God with all my heart...so I beleived that until today. Today was a day where I really felt God said to me how far away are you going to get from me and still 'think' you are close. I really felt that God talked to me deeply today. Today was a day I felt kinda mad at God and yet deep inside I knew there was no reason to be mad at Him as it is my own chosing as what and how I live my life.

This post isnt going to be a long post but what I want to remember is that no matter where I go I am thankful that God is breaking into this hard heart of mine. I thought it was pretty soft but the more day by day I go I am feeling like it needs to be broken even more for Him. I am thankful today that he is holding me close letting me know no matter what HE WILL ALWAYS be there for me. If the whole world turns from me...if no one will accept me or want me I know that I can go to bed each night knowing the true God who loves and accepts me for who I am who made the world WANTS to hold me close and today that means more than anything to me. That no matter what HE ALWAYS WANTS to hold me close.

How far are you going to get away from God? How much pain do you have to endure before you realise that you need to give up your own ways your own desires and follow Him the true God who loves you? I thought I was a good Christian girl..today I just realized I am a new baby in this walk but today I realised God is showing me that He cherishes me....and I need to embrace that full force from here on in and Find Him when I need that hug. Praise the Lord for holding our hand as we Journey through life..because believe me this life isnt easy.

Stop sitting on the fence looking pretty like you got it all in the bag...get off the fence and run to God he wants to show you how he cherishes you as well.

Thank you Lord for holding my Hand as I journey along.....Please heal me today...Please heal these hurts.... I long for you Lord....Please take the pain away and hold me close....

i feel like a chapter in my life closed today and a new one is beginning. Please pray for me as I journey if you think of it. If you need me to pray for you I would be honoured leave me a comment or send me a message. We are all on a journey, let go and let GOD.

Must Make A List!

In order for me to often get things done I need to make a list. I dont always make a list to do something but this past week I have been thinking and I keep telling myself once I amke that list things will start to get done.

See I think often even the little task can get so overwheleming but if I make a list, even if it has 40 things on it I tend to get things done. I think that is because I see small steps to a bigger picture. Since i havent been feeling well tryign to get things done havent been gettign done. My body is just tired, but I have even dropped some of my regular routine for the past week and a half to have the energy to get soem of my house work done..yet still havent. Well after this post thats enough lol. The list is goign to be made.

See I had planned on postign a picture on here everyday but then what do I post a picture of hmmmm. well today is my list but how to post it on here is yet to be figured out. SO I will get to putting pictures on here but you may need to wait at least until the weekend and my house is in order so I can start fresh.

Today is a dayI need to start fresh....I feel like I make one mistake after another right now and worry I am goign to pay for it and that will kill me. So today I am getting out my list get me focused again and back on track to the life I am ready to live. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.

Do you make lists to get things done or am I the only one tha tlikes lists to get things done?

So put on the music and let the list begin....maybe you will get a picture of the great clean house once the list is all crossed off :)

Is It wrong to Kill a Goldfish before it dies on its own?

I am tryign to get this blog in before the day is over as it was to be my offical launch day and it kinda is but with my workign at tim Hortons tonight gets me home late to write but I think I made it.

So those that have heard  I guess I am kinda doing the 365 day challenge yet I jsut really wanted myself to be blessed by what I have aroudn me and jsut remember that I do live everyday and things happen.

Well in my classroom at school I have ten little fish. They are great. Well you see though one of the fish started to swim slow and on its side on thursday so as I have expereienced in the past this means the fish will die pretty soon. Sad but you flush it and life goes on. I didnt want to kill itbefore it was ready to die so I left it in the tank for the weekend and if it got better it woudl live or like normal this fish woudl die. Well Monday mornign I go in and well the fish is still breathing..yet something had happened. The other fish started eatign it on the weekend so Half the fish was gone..you coudl see the back bones and the tail bones and stuff but the fish woudl still swim a bit and breath. everyone told me to throw it outside to freeze and it owudl be a quick death or to flush it well that wont kill it it will keep swimming its water :)! Well I couldnt murder the thing so I put it in its own bowl to survive or die whatevr it needed to do on its own time. This mornign I decided I shoudl take a picture for my first offical post..but it was gone...someone got rid of it after I had left. They tell me it was dead before they got rid of it but it was alive when I left. It was sad. I didnt want it to suffer but I coudlnt bare to kill it before it died. I figure fish die when its their time. But Wha tdo you do with a gold fish? They are different with fish from the lake becasue Of course you kill it and take it home to eat but a goldfish do you kill it? If you kill it how without hurting it more?

It was kinda sad having our first fish die? Then was it my fault do I not feed the fish enough? But how much does one feed them? I give them tons of food each mornign I though and peopel say they dont need much but did I starve them so much they have to start eattign eachother? Hmmm it was quite the event today..kinda sad...on a -43 wind chill day brrrrrr.