Thankful For Those People Who Accept Me For Me

Well today was one of those days. A blah day..thats why I am excitied about tomorrow. Tomorrow is my offical launch of this site. but today is a day that I feeel blah, I dont feel great this cold and flu of every kind is hanging in for way to long and my whole body is doen with it...but its Monday and Monday means to hang out with a good friend of mine well a great friend. I love Monday night not only for the great show we get to watch together....and to admit some times i wish I was in some of their shoes. But for the hours we talk and talk about life. See I can show up there dressed however I feel, tired, happy, sad, disappointed angry whatever and I get to just be me.

I remember one day we were talking about me and me crying about things. I often find my self crying because my heart is so sensitive to people and situations around me. I hate hurting people, or not being able to help others, or not good enough, so when I talk I get so passionate about things I often shed tears. I knwo this will shy people away from me and I sometimes wish I coudl change it but I dont know if I can. My good friend said to me once though she said.."Yes you cry a lot but when people hang out with you and see all the great qualities in you and what an amazign person you are then they see the tears and that is just a part of what makes you so amazing" (may not be quoted exact, lol).

Tonight my friend chanllenged me with the question. " What is it about you the God cherishes?" Wow now that is a question that never really was thought of in detail. God just does liek me he made me...but the question was why or how does He cherish you? This stemed from wanting a man to cherish me and love me..but first I want God number one...well then how will I allow God to cherish me and when will I know a truly feel cherished by God to know that I can be cherished fully by a human.

So this got me thinking and I will have to think about it more and may write on it another day, but I do know God cherishes my tears. I have coem to the fact that yes He loves my heart and understands that a person my not feel what I feel but the way I feel about something is what makes me unquie makes me me. And what is cool about that is that is what God cherishes about me. He doesnt mind sitting and listening and cathcing my tears. Those tears are making me into more of who I am. They may be breakign my heart from the past, making me more compassionate fro those around me, tears that are allowing me to be broken or hurt about something that has happened and allowing me to be comforted...tears to allow me relate to people in a way that maybe another cant. God cherishes that unique sometime akward thing about me.

I know tears can be weird I I try to stop them and I know many of you dont understand..but even for you who dont understand and think I am crazy yet stand by me day after day..I think you for accepting me just the way I am.

I am excited to really think of how does God cherish me? How cna I be more like the person God created me to be? Maybe God is flushing out all the garbage so he can fill me up with the good he has planned. Maybe some of you need to get on board shed a few tears let the pain out or the garbage out it may seem silly but God wants to fill us up with amazing stuff but first we got to let some stuff go to make room for what he has in store. Let go of past hurts open up a new spot for the blessing he has brought to you today. Ahhh what a great God we have..I look forward to gettign to knwo him in a deeper and deeper way.

I deserve to be chersihed and why not start with the true gentleman Jesus Christ! Who loves me the most no strings attached just the way I am!

Sunday Lunches

Today started off like every other Sunday. Wake up, get dressed for church and head out. Then after the service at least 90% of the time we head out for lunch. Now it really isn't about the lunches that we go for any more I think it is for the surprise of WHO will join us for lunch and WHAT the conversation will be about. Trust me the topics can get wild. Now today our lunch was subs not just any sub but a Quiznos sub....havent become a fun quite yet still a subway fan....(as Matt would say your the adventurous one venture out pick out one as your adventure for the day as i stand in line wondering what do i even get here ..in return I say I dont venture in the food lol.....though I am far from Picky when it comes to food....still waiting to try city girls food because by the sounds of it thats where i may get picky lol j/k.). I dont really know how to decribe the conversation which I wish I could. But you mix 5 country folk and 2 City folk...things get a little wild.

Like for an example: Imagine your self walking into your new boyfriends house and hanging up your jacket and out falls this gun at your feet and the dad says oh you be careful there young lady that thing may be loadedjust in case things get ugly around here. (now have it all being told my this serious dude by the name lets just say Boots guys summer or winter. like one cant help but laugh.

Or another example .... I will have to come visit you some time, the city girl says to the country boy..sure anytime just let us know ahead of time casue if they see you coming they will be a shootin wondering whos that in the drive way and then get out the tractor and haul you away to the brush for those wild animals out there.... like really laughter is a must....

ok I cant share them all because I am sure you are sitting there thinking crazy women here and ya maybe i am but there was gut laughter convos happening.

So  a funny one maybe becasue I was a part of this one I really think it was funny but boot guy tells us he wants to try bull riding.....as the convo goes I ask you just need to put a belt around one of cow guys bulls butts and your set...and well now boots guy just goes with it like picture a bull walking aorund wondering why you just put a belt on his butt.. and he shakes it thinking the cow guy is crazy why the belt is on his butt..well more laughter as boot guy drags on the story. Then one asks why does the rider always have one hand in the air and boots says well its so he can raise the roof (now just pictures boots guy raising the roof or better yet next time your watching bull riding that dude riding is just a raising the roof.   lol

Really I would love to share everything we talked about but really its so funny when you are there cause you need the voices and actions but dont worry when this site is offical pictures will be added and hope you can see some funny , sad, crazy or adventures days ahead.

You need something for that bucket list of yours or what to do in Saskatoon Saskatchewan on a Sunday after Church you have to come to Sunday lunch and lets se where the conversation will go.

Favourite memories from lunch:

1. Doesnt every kid play in a fridge or a deep freeze outside (you ever sufficates inside they needed to go anyways why do you think the prairies are so scare...of course all said is complete fun no harm done to anyone)
2. fo-shizzle...like you know fo-shizzle you mean its not in the IPhone dictionary
3. Some people like to cook but I like to Eat - said by blonde city girl
4. (So i want to do the west coast trail looking for takers) Boots guy says what you need to do is blog your adventure going without atually going just find photos and photshop your self in....like with a white head shot on a tanned person lol
5. One day your grandkids are going to just think it and it will text
6. Who seriously only had four options for the text tones grandpa (said by our genreation grandkids)
7. (arrive at lunch around 1:15pm to Quiznos) well i would hate to eat and run but I better go so I can make it for supper at my parents (now 3:45pm)

and then getting to the cars and its about -40 outside today the one guy looks at me and says do you know you have a flat tire? What a flat? How long you been driivng like that? I dont know? Well you still got that pump in your car? I sure do..being a responsible girl ;) so we pump it up and later that evening, with hot water and soap the hole is found....and what it was is a staple yep someone litered a staple...so come on people use the trash can people dont need staples in their tires.

Well I am laughing so hard trying to write this cause I can recall the moments. Thanks for listening and I would love to hear your best country child hood or now memory of living in the bush....or make it up elaborate on it thats what Sunday Lunch was all about today and wow things can be so funny....wonder what will be the next Sunday lunch when we all get together......hmmmm

well I had a ton more to talk about today but I think that was good reading for today as I am jsut getting started on how to use this blog. Bare with me as I learn how this all works and share my everyday life and fast pace thinking talking mind:)

Later aall

Thankful For My Up Bringing

Today has been pretty uneventful. I have had some sort of virus that gives me a sore throat, hurting deep chest cough and no voice. Therefore basically I got myself addicted to Yatzzee for the last two days...not a good thing for me to get into cause I hate stopping lol. Then I made a baby room wall talk for a customer and then a friend called and said people were heading out to the movie "The Fighter". Movies not need you to talk and I needed to get out of my house so off I went not having a clue what it was about.

The true story of two brothers who box. Not such a bad movie a little slow for my sake and not much of a real plot felt like it was just reshowing stuff over and over but whatever it was a movie and it was a chic flick so good for me for trying. What got me in the show was the swearing. There was a lot and I know its a rough setting of a movie but when you arent aroudn it a lot you relaly notice it and I dont enjoy sitting through it. While I sat there and watched it which was back in the early 90's maybe they were all sittign aorund drinking smoking and some doing drugs etc. It just hit home how thankful I was to grow up in a hoem where there wasnt fighting due to alchol or having to listen to a bunch of grown ups swear. I had a pretty peaceful up bringing. When I look at some people I hang out with today often my mind set doesnt make sense to them why I woudl thin a certain way for feel certain ways about things, but its becasue of how I was brought up two parents that loved me an did everyhting they knew how to raise me the rigth way. To have a God who loves me forgives me and keeps encouaging me not to give up and keep trusting and following Him even though it see,s crazy. Its kinda hard to explain how thankful I am but the feeling I had while watching the movie made me thankful that I didnt have to endure that growing up. For those that do or did may you know that there is a God out there that loves you and is watching out for you. Turn your focus on Him and watch what can happen. It isnt easy as I am learnign and we all stumble and full but I am thankful I have a God reachign His hand out to me willign to help me up dust me off and lead me in the rigth direction again.

Anyways needed to write something down before the day was done and this is what came to mind. What ar eyou thankful for in your up bringing? What would you wish you coudl have changed? How will you raise your family different?

HISTORY OF GETTING HERE

For years now I always wanted to start a blog. A blog to keep people up to date with what's happening in my life and express thoughts about this journey that I am on. It was back in December 2006 I got this new journal and in it I wrote.

"Thoughts Unwritten - What a wierd title I know. Over the last several weeks I have been trying to think of maybe a Blog title, or a title for stuff I write down. I decided I couldn't say anything about my thoughts, dreams, ideas, stories, etc. being untold or unleashed becasue I am one big open talking book. I share and talk all the time, often even if other people don't want to hear it. The one thing I don't do is ever write anything down. I relaize that often inside there are many more thoughts that are forsure unwritten or recorded anywhere. I have no idea where my life is about to take me but maybe if I 'Release My Unwritten Thoughts', one day they will mean something to someone."

It's hard to believe that was 5 years ago that I wrote that and here I am just now trying to figure out how a blog works. In the past 5 years tons has taken place in my life and yet I have no idea really what I have done in those years. In the past month or so I have really been doing a lot of thinking of just how blessed I am. Often people look at me and say your 31...really....and you're not married, you work two jobs and you don't even own a house. All I can say feeling a little strange inside is .... yep it's all true.... but though these comments can somedays dig deep inside it has brought to my attetnion that I am so blessed in many ways.

Now to the blog part of things here. My goal is to journey through life and see where God takes me. I am goign to try very hard to take a picture everyday of somehting I have done, something that was meaningful to me, or something to remind me of another day that I have lived and survived.

I am not really a writter, I am not a grammar teacher or English major and I don't plan to make sure everything is edited just right. I plan to just write and let you in on what makes Kimberly who she is.

I hope you enjoy my journey with me as I see where God leads me, where he takes me to and what lies ahead for me in my future. Let's take it one day at a time with God leading the way.